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March 23, 2009, Veronika Kashtanova. Abortions. Session 1
Introduction by Maris
Example of Memory Activation
Maris: We're delving into the subject of abortions. How does karma relate to abortion? Should one choose to have an abortion or not? What becomes of the soul of an aborted child? Is it murder or not? We explore different lifetimes where you assume various roles. A woman who has abortions, a man who coerces women into abortions, or even performs them himself, and a child who is aborted and seeks reincarnation while the mother aborts you.
Veronika: I see myself attempting to abort my child. I'm wearing a long dress, perhaps from the medieval era, but I die.
Maris: Next story.
Veronika: In ancient times, there was an unwanted child in my life, many children, and poor relations with my husband. To induce a miscarriage, I lift a heavy stone. I become sick but survive, living the rest of my life in regret, feeling "unclean" inside.
Maris: Next story.
Veronika: In a period with high wigs and noble ancestry, I've an unwanted child. I don't want this child, and a doctor performs an abortion. I fall ill, and have no more children afterwards.
Maris: Are there past lives related to abortions that influence your present life?
Veronika: My soul already feels regret for past abortions. Now, each of my children is a conscious choice. At this level of soul development, I understand the value of incarnation. Every child I have now or in future lives will be accepted. These are deliberate births.
Maris: Did any of your past lives involve a profession where you performed abortions or induced miscarriages?
Veronika: Yes, in one life, I was a healer long ago, perhaps in the first or second century AD, who performed abortions. But I wasn't indiscriminate; I refused when my intuition told me it wasn't necessary.
Maris: Were there lives where you were a man, coercing his partner into having an abortion?
Veronika: Yes, several times. There were moments I took a woman by force, indifferent to her pregnancy or her decision to abort. Women knew I wasn't going to form a family with them, so most chose abortions.
Maris: Can you provide an example of a male incarnation?
Veronika: Ancient Rome. I was a man who could have any woman. There was a young noblewoman from a somewhat impoverished family. I toyed with her while her parents anticipated a wedding. My intentions were different. Upon learning she was pregnant, I expressed my disinterest in the child and provided money for an abortion. In shame and despair, she ended her life.
Maris: Next story.
Veronika: I was a warrior and leader, able to attract any beautiful woman; they succumbed to me easily. It wasn't always force—sometimes I'd enchant and seduce noble ladies. In a conquered city, I'd become involved with the widow of a slain man, who was captivated by me. This was in a small European principality. When she became pregnant, I told her: "I never asked for an heir. I'm a free-spirited warrior." She induced bleeding to end the pregnancy, nearly dying in the process. I remained indifferent, driven by conquest and power.
Maris: Next story. Have you experienced being an aborted child?
Veronika: I was a tiny embryo, a boy. I sensed the mother's reluctance and rejection—it was acutely painful to feel unloved. This wasn't meant to happen; it's excruciating. I felt resignation, as if I was crying.
Maris: Next story. In any past life, were you an embryo who induced a miscarriage yourself?
Veronika: No.
Maris: Was it always a decision made by the parents?
Veronika: Yes.
Maris: Were there instances where the mother wanted to give birth, but someone insisted on an abortion?
Veronika: Yes, the father, during the Renaissance, Shakespearean era in England. Though wealthy, he faced financial troubles, possibly with the government—taxes or an attempt to seize something. Fearing for his financial security, and already having many children, he insisted on an abortion. I was a boy, destined to be a composer during a cultural revival. Mother was gentle and loving, raising her children with kindness, but my father was strict and worried. Despite her protests, he insisted.
Maris: We'll pause there; next story.
Veronika: My mother, a countess, discovers her husband, a military man, dies at war while she's pregnant. I’m a boy, a late child aware of my mother's body, feeling a physical connection. I was conceived when my father was alive, in the third week.
Maris: What was your mother's reaction?
Veronika: She learned of his death in the war against Turkey. Her relationship with him was complex. She was upset yet relieved to be rid of him.
Maris: Were there previous children in the family?
Veronika: No, I would have been the first. For years, there were no children, and I came at my father’s request for an heir. Mother was uninterested in motherhood. I felt bound to her physically but lacked any spiritual connection. This hurt, despite being a mature soul.
Maris: Next story. Were there attempts to be born to the same mother multiple times despite aborted or miscarried past attempts?
Veronika: Often if an early miscarriage occurs, the soul waits or tries again, seeking those specific parents and conditions. My soul didn’t have such an experience.
Maris: Did you experience late-term abortions, where a more developed child was lost?
Veronika: No, I did not terminate pregnancies at late stages.
Maris: Were there cases where you were close to birth but events went wrong, leading to death?
Veronika: Yes, in Italy. My mother caught smallpox and died during pregnancy. I was a girl and died with her, beloved and eagerly expected by her.
Maris: Any other instances of dying during childbirth with the mother?
Veronika: Yes, once. As a child, I turned so no one could help.
Maris: Why did you turn in such a way?
Veronika: It was a speedy reincarnation following a life of military success. I incarnated to learn humility as a boy but wasn't meant to die, though past life skills hindered my birth.
Maris: Enough for now. We've activated several past life memories concerning abortions and interrupted pregnancies. Let's explore one story in depth. Which life should we begin with?
Veronika: Please choose which would be best.
Story 1
Maris: [Introduction by Maris]
Veronika: I'm a girl living in a European village, with three older brothers. My parents work as farmers, selling their produce and goods at fairs. My father is also a craftsman, while my mother is burdened with work, often feeling weary and in pain.
I've a natural healing gift. When my mother sits me on her lap, and I hum or play, she soon dozes off, and her pain diminishes. Noticing this, she began seeking my comfort more frequently.
If any of my brothers injured themselves, I'd kiss and comfort them, assuring they'd feel better by morning—and they always did. My touch possessed healing energy, effective not just for people but animals too. When our goat fell ill, I comforted it, and by the next day, it was better.
In the market, I encountered an elderly herbalist who noticed the energy in my hands. "Would you like to learn about herbs?" she asked me. "You could create remedies to help people," she explained. Intrigued, I sought my parents' permission to assist her, and she taught me about herbal medicine.
By age 20, a mentally disturbed person was brought to the herbalist. She asked me to sit with him while she prepared a remedy. Speaking softly to him, I reassured him that things would improve. Taking his hand, I encouraged him to harness the inner strength within him, which helped calm him. The village soon heard of my abilities, and people began seeking me out. When the herbalist passed away, I continued treating people on my own.
Eventually, a family brought their pregnant daughter to me, not wanting the child. I sensed the child's presence and foresaw that without intervention, the young mother might end her life. It was a moral crossroad: terminate the pregnancy and potentially end a life or do nothing and risk the mother's demise. The girl returned after a week for help, and after much reflection, I decided to aid her using an herbal remedy, inducing a miscarriage safely.
I advised her that any future children should be born, exacting a promise that she accepted as her responsibility. This experience profoundly impacted both of us.
Without guidance from spiritual mentors, each similar case left me to decide independently. If I sensed a child should be born, I would refuse. Sometimes, I perceived when a birth might endanger the mother's life, making clear that "the mother must survive," thus choosing accordingly.
Though I faced many challenging ethical decisions regarding whose life to prioritize, I never performed many abortions. Through my profound connection with nature's forces, I was instinctively guided by each herb's healing energies. Sometimes, I simply eased animals' transitions, knowing I couldn't heal them.
Maris: Were there times when conception occurred, but the embryo lacked a soul?
Veronika: Occasionally, during early pregnancy, within the first two weeks, some women intuitively realize they're pregnant. The soul hovers near its future mother even before conception, observing, lovingly waiting for the parents to conceive.
Maris: Share more about your life as a healer. How long did you live? Were there significant emotional highs or lows?
Veronika: Yes, life was a continuous learning journey, meeting people with undiagnosable diseases like cancer. I sensed cancer as something foreign, working with its essence. Though I sometimes succeeded in curing it, often I could only ease their pain before they died.
Maris: What causes cancer?
Veronika: Each case is different. Often, it's a blockage of internal energy channels. Thoughts, actions, or behavior can disrupt these life energies, leading to disease.
Maris: What type of behavior disrupts natural energy flow?
Veronika: Many things—anger, hatred, an insatiable thirst for power, greed, or even intense fears and phobias can obstruct life energy.
Maris: Could cancer be a karmic path, a predetermined means of exiting an incarnation, or is it solely personal tendencies?
Veronika: Generally, it's not predestined. Cancer is life's decomposition—it's multifaceted. Usually, there's no karmic plan for it.
Maris: Continue, please. How old were you at death?
Veronika: I lived to 67. When I died, it was peaceful.
I passed with all my successes, failures, and lessons intact, grateful for them. I thought, "I'm sorry for those I couldn't help," and drifted off easily. My health had been compromised by cysts and other ailments, but I hadn't paid them much mind, absorbed as I was in my work.
Maris: Were you blind to your health, or knowingly neglectful?
Veronika: I sensed something wasn't right, but work always took precedence.
Maris: Wasn't this an imbalance—caring for others over yourself?
Veronika: No, I loved myself. Life's a school; each incarnation is a lesson. Everything I did, I did wholeheartedly, without fanaticism.
Maris: At the moment of death, what did you experience?
Veronika: I saw a weakening glow within my body. My vegetarian diet and herbal infusions, alongside fruits and milk offerings from villagers, maintained my vitality. As the inner light dimmed, I knew my body had reached its limits—continuing would invite disease. I detached, reviewing my body and realizing I was due to pass, laden with gratitude and regret for those I couldn't assist.
The soul I aborted forgave me.
Maris: Which soul?
Veronika: The first girl who sought my help.
Maris: Why only her among all the souls you helped abort?
Veronika: She was intended to be born, but I disrupted the plan.
Maris: What happens after your death?
Veronika: Reviewing my experience, I move to a higher realm and meet a spiritual teacher who encourages reflection. He smiles, cautioning against self-torment while offering future guidance on subtle understanding and working with higher powers.
Maris: During your life as a healer, did you receive guidance from higher powers, or were all decisions your own?
Veronika: It was entirely independent.
Maris: Why?
Veronika: To learn; it's not the beginning of my journey. Real learning comes from autonomy. One must use and develop existing knowledge independently—valuing free choice.
Maris: What other insights did your spiritual teacher provide post-death?
Veronika: He emphasized a simple path—opening your heart to help others, accumulating wisdom across lives. Continuous guidance offered suggestions but left choices mine, ensuring spiritual growth through personal challenges.
Maris: Could you revisit the planning before that incarnation? What was known about that life as a healer before being born?
Veronika: I sought a connection between the spiritual and physical world, desiring to manifest healing skills. This interest was rooted in developing those abilities.
Maris: Focused on abortions and miscarriages—how many did you conduct in that life?
Veronika: I ended five pregnancies.
Maris: What are the karmic repercussions? Are there knots requiring resolution in future lives?
Veronika: I altered incarnating souls' plans, which was my lesson. Picturing it as a river obstructed by a dam, the river alters course needing eventual rectification, not as karmic punishment but as necessary balance restoration.
Maris: I wasn’t talking about punishment, but consequences. Might you assume another role?
Veronika: Yes, one of the aborted souls' plans involved laboring for them as a farmer, contributing my energy and time.
Maris: Was this laboring for the same soul?
Veronika: Yes, sound compensation wasn't universal but applied in certain situations.
Maris: Why this soul among others?
Veronika: I'd to choose between lives; I wasn't justified in deciding.
Maris: Was this about that first abortion, prioritizing the mother?
Veronika: No, it relates to another incident, impeding a soul's birth plan.
Maris: Reflect when deciding on abortion—what did you know of that soul's plan?
Veronika: At that moment, I didn't see the soul's entire plan, realizing only its outer presence but not its full intent in the body.
Maris: Did the woman risk dying, or were you fulfilling her wish to remain childless?
Veronika: It was an illegitimate child, from a poor man, complicated by familial issues. There was even a possibility she'd kill or abandon the newborn. That's what I sensed.
Yet, I was prepared for ramifications. I confidently embraced any consequence, willing to face it squarely, guided by faith in higher powers. Consequently, I labored as a farmer.
Another instance involved supporting a boy in poverty, extending aid only as needed—not excessively. I learned about balance in karmic debts through these parallel lessons.
The soul senses these lessons; the human mind doesn’t always grasp when to give aid or decline.
Maris: Anything else from the healer's life? Any unasked questions or teacher suggestions?
Veronika: He asserts the lessons were fully processed, and my current life embodies them.
Maris: Thank you to all spiritual teachers for this exploration of abortion. Veronika, when you're ready, open your eyes. I appreciate your contribution to this project. See you in the next session.
Veronika: Yes, gladly. Goodbye.